Wanting timing, desire and you

We always want what we can't have. What about wanting what we shouldn't have? We can't control the things we want sometimes, there's something inside us that craves for it. No matter how hard we try there's no stopping the cravings.

Timing is the main reason I can't have what I want. Timing seems to have a control over my life. There's never the "right time" for things. It's always been the wrong timing whether it was the wrong time to get a zit or the wrong time to love someone, it's never the right time. I think there is reasoning behind this, reasons that I have yet to understand. Not being able to have it makes you want it more.

When you stop wanting it, that's when you get what you want. As soon as you stop looking or trying you get what you want ans what you deserve. Then that's when you know that is it right and that somehow the "bad timing" turns into the best timing. So when I stop wanting you, that's when I'll get you, but it's impossible for me not to want you...

Sometimes

Sometimes the simple act of missing someone can overcome our emotions. One day you can be perfectly fine until you see or hear something that reminds you of someone that once meant so much to you, maybe still does and you start to miss them. Memories with them come flooding into your head and sometimes you can't turn it off. It's never a bad thing to miss someone you no longer want in your life. It might not even be you missing the person but just the memories, the feelings that you shared with them that made you feel so good. 

Some say that missing someone is a good thing because it means that they gave you something good to remember. There are times when we choose to be sad about missing them and wishing we had them back. We all have those days. But there are times when we also can choose to be happy that we miss them because we know that we had life changing memories that we will always keep close to our hearts. It doesn't mean that you need that someone back in your life, even though sometimes it would be nice. 

We all miss people, but we let them go for a reason.

a little bit of me

17. To me the world is one big mysterious adventure waiting to happen. I’m the average teenage white girl who loves her Starbucks and has unrealistic expectations of people. Someone who’s just beginning to find their way and becoming who they are suppose to be.

Excited for what life has to offer me. The way I see it is there’s no point into making life complicated, so why not live simply? I’m a girl who doesn't know what she wants but knows what she loves. I love my romantic stories and hope for that epic love story one day. I live my life through cheesy quotes.

It’s the oldest story in the world. One day you’re 17 planning for someday. And then quietly, without you even noticing, someday is today, and then someday is yesterday. And this is your life. 

If you know where that saying is from then we can be friends. 

I’m just your average girl, looking to find unrealistic dreams in a realistic world.

My name? Well that's something I want to keep a secret, because when people learn who you are they judge you for who you are and not how you write of how you feel. I want to keep the mystery in your life. So for now, yours truly is will be known as Human.

                                                              yours truly,

                                                                             Human.