Two Ways

The way I see it is you have two ways of living, for other people or for yourself. 

And we all start off living to please other people and gain their acceptance until one day we stop and realize that it's time to start doing things for ourselves. Those people are often called selfish. But we only get one chance in this life so why not do the things that makes us happy? 

To find a balance inbetween the two is nearly impossible but is the ultimate goal in this world. 

And then somewhere down the line before we bite the dust we start doing things for other people because we lived our lives for ourselves and it was time to make someone else happy as a last deed of kindness on the earth. 

So do yourself a favor and try living for yourself for a little while and see where it takes you. 

the beginning of an end

In a blink of an eye, 3 years passes before your eyes without ever really realizing it. Then the day comes when you're sitting at your last Friday night football game with all your friends. Cheering for the team that you've stood by through every game. Then just like that, everything becomes the last time. The last school lunch, the last time sitting in those desk, the last time being with all your friends at school and even your last prom. High school was a time to learn things like rules, and about how to break those rules, about others, and most importantly about ourselves. It was about experiencing new things like being apart of a team, meeting new people, falling in love, getting our hearts broken, and not having regrets.
We try to make every moment of our senior year count knowing that it will soon be over and we will be on our way to the real world. And it's scary to think that we will be out there on our own. Even though most of us won't admit it, but just the thought of it scares us. But we know that when the time comes we will be ready.
Graduation day, which once seemed so far away, but now is here. It our time to celebrate all we have accomplished, all the friends and the unforgettable memories we have made. That day when we are all sitting there in our caps and gowns. The last time we will ever be one as a class. Around the people who have watched you grow up. Some of these people we may never see again. But that is okay, because there are far better things ahead than any we leave behind. One day we will look back on old photos and smile, remembering all those good times we have had together. And it's okay to be afraid of change, afraid that this is never going to be the same because it won't. It'll never be the same and that's the exciting part is not knowing what is up ahead, the greatest part of our life is about to start. Maybe we will get everything we ever wished for, or maybe we'll more than we can ever imagine. It is the beginning of an end.
In a few days we will graduate. And we will be able to hold up our diploma and say "I made it." So congratulations to the class of 2014, WE DID IT!

Distance

Distance is a scary thing. It is being away from something or someone even though sometimes you may not want to. If there is anything I have learned in the past year is that even though it is scary, distance is a good thing. It can make you realize many things. Maybe we just need it to figure out who we are and what we want. Maybe we use it to run away from our problems because it is easier that way.

Distance makes the heart grow fonder, or it makes it stronger. It can make you want someone or something so much that it is killing you to be away from it or make you see that you are better off without it. In our lives there are many times that we distance ourselves from things whether we have a choice in the matter or not. But distance doesn't mean the end. Moving on doesn't mean we can't still go back once in awhile. We can't control what our heart wants, but we can control whether we go after it or not. So be not afraid of distance because somethings distance can be your answer.

Wanting timing, desire and you

We always want what we can't have. What about wanting what we shouldn't have? We can't control the things we want sometimes, there's something inside us that craves for it. No matter how hard we try there's no stopping the cravings.

Timing is the main reason I can't have what I want. Timing seems to have a control over my life. There's never the "right time" for things. It's always been the wrong timing whether it was the wrong time to get a zit or the wrong time to love someone, it's never the right time. I think there is reasoning behind this, reasons that I have yet to understand. Not being able to have it makes you want it more.

When you stop wanting it, that's when you get what you want. As soon as you stop looking or trying you get what you want ans what you deserve. Then that's when you know that is it right and that somehow the "bad timing" turns into the best timing. So when I stop wanting you, that's when I'll get you, but it's impossible for me not to want you...

Sometimes

Sometimes the simple act of missing someone can overcome our emotions. One day you can be perfectly fine until you see or hear something that reminds you of someone that once meant so much to you, maybe still does and you start to miss them. Memories with them come flooding into your head and sometimes you can't turn it off. It's never a bad thing to miss someone you no longer want in your life. It might not even be you missing the person but just the memories, the feelings that you shared with them that made you feel so good. 

Some say that missing someone is a good thing because it means that they gave you something good to remember. There are times when we choose to be sad about missing them and wishing we had them back. We all have those days. But there are times when we also can choose to be happy that we miss them because we know that we had life changing memories that we will always keep close to our hearts. It doesn't mean that you need that someone back in your life, even though sometimes it would be nice. 

We all miss people, but we let them go for a reason.

a little bit of me

17. To me the world is one big mysterious adventure waiting to happen. I’m the average teenage white girl who loves her Starbucks and has unrealistic expectations of people. Someone who’s just beginning to find their way and becoming who they are suppose to be.

Excited for what life has to offer me. The way I see it is there’s no point into making life complicated, so why not live simply? I’m a girl who doesn't know what she wants but knows what she loves. I love my romantic stories and hope for that epic love story one day. I live my life through cheesy quotes.

It’s the oldest story in the world. One day you’re 17 planning for someday. And then quietly, without you even noticing, someday is today, and then someday is yesterday. And this is your life. 

If you know where that saying is from then we can be friends. 

I’m just your average girl, looking to find unrealistic dreams in a realistic world.

My name? Well that's something I want to keep a secret, because when people learn who you are they judge you for who you are and not how you write of how you feel. I want to keep the mystery in your life. So for now, yours truly is will be known as Human.

                                                              yours truly,

                                                                             Human.